I write because…

I have not blogged in many many months. The reason I started this blog was because I had so much to say about Bali, the place I live and love. I started so well, I was gaining inspiration day by day, finding stories in the smallest details. I really enjoyed the support I was getting from the blogging community and I met some wonderful people. Then, I went back to England, and had a wonderful month with my family and friends, but somehow it changed me. I came back to Bali in a fog of confusion, and perhaps I am still in it. I do not know what happened, or why, but I lost that passion and drive. I felt lost, and could not find my feet. I have been floating ever since.

I tried to shake things up, thinking I needed a change, so I decided to knock down my house and start again, believing by rebuilding my house somehow I could rebuild my life. It is quite a metaphor, and quite a huge step to take! We are 9 months in to rebuilding, and have hit another block..no more money. Its a frustrating place to be in, my dreams of a perfect house are not materializing. We have a structure, but no interior design. A shell, with no heart. Again rather symbolic I feel, but in some ways I have come full circle and maybe this has kick-started me in to writing again..and here I get to the point of this post

I write because it is therapeutic, I had no idea what would come out when I sat down and opened this page, but I am enjoying the process. I need to write, as I need to figure things out, it is an outlet for me to be my true self. Perhaps that’s why I have not been able to write, as I have lost sight of who that is, but now I realize, that is exactly why I should be writing!

So I am looking forward to following this course, hopefully I will find my voice again and get back in to the one thing I really enjoy..writinghouse broken

10 thoughts on “I write because…

  1. So nice to hear from you again, I have missed my blogging friends. Do not worry, I am still the same, just needed to shake things up a bit. I think it could be a form of mid life crisis!

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  2. I’m taking this course (as you know 🙂 thanks for stoping by ) and I can promise you it will help you a lot.
    About what you wrote, I lived away from family for 15 years, and everytime I visted them, I would come back home with the feeling you mention… I think going between “homes” confuses us… You know what I mean?
    Best of luck and welcome back to the blog cloud!

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    • yes, that is exactly it, and add to that the fact that my two worlds do not mix well, it makes it even harder. Thanks for the welcome, I am really enjoying being back in the blogosphere!

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  3. AWW! Love the honesty in your post! Hoping the best for you as you start over with your house and as you find your voice again in writing. I am the same, I write for its so therapeutic for me! Helps me gather my thoughts and express them in a way I feel comfortable doing. Looking forward to seeing more posts by you.

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